Volume 1 Episode 4
So it has been a couple of weeks since I last wrote. A couple of factors contributed to that. I spent some time getting the site up and running. It’s functional, but really a work in progress, kinda like this blog. I also had a vacation from my job, and really decided to spin down, and not tax my brain too much. I know what you’re saying…this is taxing?? J
I left a question pending in Episode 3 that I was really mulling over very hard. I feel the need to speak (write) to that now. I really wasn’t in a bad place when I wrote E3, I was just confused. I learned through this process of self-examination that the answer to most of my frustrations and lack of fulfillment is, well, ME. Nothing really new there, but again, knowing something and accepting it are distinctly different. I was owning it. What I was wrestling with is the flip side of that coin; if I am the solution, then most likely I am the problem too. Accepting that was a bitch. (Sorry, if the language offends you, but I’m writing this how I feel it. It may get worse before it gets better. My prose is not always elegant…) It was difficult, and at least when I wrote E3, I wasn’t really comfortable sharing that. The next day however, I decided that the key was to focus on the positives. I am the solution here. This blog is a major player in that. It is a creative outlet, and it has really brightened my mood, and changed my outlook. Hurray me, right?? (Sorry, the sarcasm is strong in me. I’ll need to find a way to indicate that in the writing too.)
I certainly hope that I can get to a place where I do some different types of writing. I mentioned that above, maybe a column type thing, maybe some creative writing. We’ll see where this goes. For now, just putting words to paper; on whatever comes to mind is going to have to be enough. I do need to commit, at least to myself, to some amount of posts at some interval. Once a week would seem to be the minimum, but maybe shorter, more frequent is better? I’ll find the stride.