Episode 4

Volume 1 Episode 4

So it has been a couple of weeks since I last wrote.  A couple of factors contributed to that.  I spent some time getting the site up and running.  It’s functional, but really a work in progress, kinda like this blog.  I also had a vacation from my job, and really decided to spin down, and not tax my brain too much.  I know what you’re saying…this is taxing??  J

I left a question pending in Episode 3 that I was really mulling over very hard.  I feel the need to speak (write) to that now.  I really wasn’t in a bad place when I wrote E3, I was just confused.  I learned through this process of self-examination that the answer to most of my frustrations and lack of fulfillment is, well, ME.  Nothing really new there, but again, knowing something and accepting it are distinctly different.  I was owning it.  What I was wrestling with is the flip side of that coin; if I am the solution, then most likely I am the problem too.  Accepting that was a bitch.  (Sorry, if the language offends you, but I’m writing this how I feel it.  It may get worse before it gets better.  My prose is not always elegant…) It was difficult, and at least when I wrote E3, I wasn’t really comfortable sharing that.  The next day however, I decided that the key was to focus on the positives.  I am the solution here.  This blog is a major player in that.  It is a creative outlet, and it has really brightened my mood, and changed my outlook.  Hurray me, right??  (Sorry, the sarcasm is strong in me.  I’ll need to find a way to indicate that in the writing too.)

I certainly hope that I can get to a place where I do some different types of writing.  I mentioned that above, maybe a column type thing, maybe some creative writing.  We’ll see where this goes.  For now, just putting words to paper; on whatever comes to mind is going to have to be enough.  I do need to commit, at least to myself, to some amount of posts at some interval.  Once a week would seem to be the minimum, but maybe shorter, more frequent is better?  I’ll find the stride.

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