I am its bitch. I have been fighting its effects for a long time. When I started this blog, I came to the realization that I was going to stay in corporate America. I was of the mind set prior to that to go and seek opportunities outside of the corporate America, but I decided I like all of the trappings. That helped me rededicate myself to my job, for awhile. That has really worn off. My frustration level is high again. I keep weighing the plusses and minuses of the current position. I know that no matter where I go its going to ultimately be the same. So do I leave? Who knows. I have had some writing to do to prepare myself, and I keep finding excusers to put it off. I know that if I don’t do the work, I’ll end up sitting in my current position, miserable, until they no longer need me. The entire point of hiring the career coach was to do the work before I get let go. Look in these times, being an employee is like being a head coach of a sports team…you get hired to get fired. In their case though, they have guaranteed contracts. I don’t.
I am not convinced that I want to move on. I want to be prepared to move on. That’s where the inertia comes in. I am trying to get better. My coach is on board to help me. Here goes.
I’ll save you the whining about the job. I have a good gig. I make good money. I’ll be OK. Just needed to get this off my chest, and into the ether. Maybe it will help.